2nd Semester of the Final Year

The second and also the last semester of my studies in UMS has started today with petroleum processing class. Hope i can do well this semester and that includes my final year project too - designing bioreactors. Amin. i really have to maintain and furthermore improve my cgpa. These are my subject for this semester:-

• Petroleum Processing
• Solid Waste Management
• Safety and .... (Keselamatan dan Penghindaran Kehilangan)<- Don't know how to translate
• Project II
• Plant Design II

GANBARIMASU!!! And also GOOD LUCK everyone~

Sudah Jatuh Ditimpa Tangga

I was having a number of bad luck lately. Such a terrible thing to say but it's true. Firstly, my laptop broke down. After a while, the one repairing it said that it's a hardware problem - hardware corrupted/hypersensitive something (i overheard the conversation with my dad so i don't really know what the problem was). OMG!!! What am i going to do? I heard the news in the morning of the day i was taking off to Sabah. Can you imagine how miserable i am? Fortunately, my dad has his old laptop which he doesn't use anymore. Thank you Abah. but seriously, will you feel comfortable using other's thing? eventhough it's your dad's? believe me, i felt that way too. it's like i don't have freedom to change anything inside. but still i used it. for awhile, i thought that my problem was solved. sadly, a few days back, the laptop got broken. iwas so damn depressed. Am i magnet of bad luck? How could i get my final year project done? then my father calls and bring the news that my laptop is already repaired. Really thank you to the one who repaired my laptop. You are the silver lining of my grey clouds. but there is still a misery of the risk of having it posted here. is it really ok to post a laptop? will it be save?

Love In The Ice by DBSK

Tsumetai sono te kimi no seijanai
Osonaki hibi hotta kizukakae
Dare ga wo aisuru koto wo soreteruno
Koto bano uragawa se wa mukete
Dakeshi me ta koroga kuri no youni
Sotto toke desu

Dare mo ga dare kani aisareru tameni
Kono youni inochi wo kirameka seru no sa
Sorega moshi mo boku nara
Mouichido kimi no kokoro wo
Towa no yasashisate atata meruyo

Umei no itsezura
Kokoro wo itametemo
Sono namida no sakini wa
Hito suji no hikari ga
Yamino naka maiorite
Bokura wa kizu kusa
Kurushi hodo ni tsuyouku kanji ya eru hito no nukumori

Dare moga mouteru kanashi ni yakodoku
Ii yashite moraeru basho sagashiteiru
Sou kimi ni wo sona bashouga koko ni arusa wo sarenaide
Mou mayoanaide bokuga mamoru

Setsunai hodou (my heart)
Utsukusii aidakana (oh don't be afraid)
Hakanai hodo (let yo know my love)
Uruwashii konoto ki wo (you know, let you know my love...)

Dare mo ga dare kani aisareru tameni
Kono youni inochi wo kirameka seru no sa
Sorega moshi mo boku nara
Mouichido kimi no kokoro wo
Towa no yasashisate atata meru yo

Translation

Your small, cold hands and trembling lips
Able to carry on as if nothing has happened

Are you afraid of remembering someone?
Struggling to swallow the words bubbling up to your lips

Your back view resembles falling white snow
Melting bit by bit

Just like the star that doesn’t leave the dark night sky
We’ll carry this dream forever together with love and trust
If I were that person
Once again
I’d hug your hardened heart tightly in my arms forever

Against the wall of reality
Even the coldest of hearts
At the end of the flowing tears

The fuzzy stream of light
Shines brightly in the darkness
Passing through that time

Able to feel each other’s body heat
In the heart that stops breathing

Everyone has scars and heavy sighs
I’m trying to find that space in time when I can draw you into my arms

I can’t believe how just whispering to you make me so nervous
Till we can be together in my world

Alone in the end of time, my heart
Don’t be afraid because you were left alone
Till the end of time I’ll let you know my love
I’ll protect you, you know
Because I love you, I’ll let you know my love

Just like the star that doesn’t leave the dark sky
We’ll carry this dream forever together with love and trust
If I were that person
Once again
I’d hug your hardened heart tightly in my arms forever

Does Broken Heart Heal?

Can a broken, shattered heart

Which has scattered into pieces

Be one again?

Can it be healed?

Perhaps can mend it with adhesive of pleasure, happiness

But, will it still be the same?

Once shattered

Will tend to fracture more

And be one no more

And will never be broken anymore

Cause it never is one

Draughtiness~

The air is so cold.

Its almost froze the wound in my heart.

Will it be enough to freeze my whole heart?

I’m tired of having a heart.

True I had gained happiness through it,

but the warmth of it is not enough to melt my almost-frozen heart.

I get tired of melting and freezing over and over again.

Is it not enough?

Am I asking too much?

Darkness In My Eyes

Lately, I’ve been crazy with Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) songs. It’s like so damn crazy that it keeps playing in my head even during final exam. Thanks to that I can relax a bit, not as stressful as I used to when answering head-banging question. Just about last weekend, I crossed over with 1 of their song, and the melody capture my heart almost instantly although I don’t know what it meant. And it is in Japanese, should be easier for me to sing along compared to their Korean songs. I present to you ~ DARKNESS EYES

I'm just in deep aoi kodoku no (umi no naka)
I don't know how mae ni susumezu (tachidomatte)
Hagare ochiteku itsuwari no kakera (kakera)nigiri tsubushi te shitatari ochiru blood
Dark in my mind boku ha yowasa ni kakurete

Deguchi no nai kunou kakae
Kawaita sekai tatazunderu

Kokoro fukaku kareta kanjou Seek in (the) dark (can't see the light)Here is no light
Yume no hazama samayoi tsudzuke (darkness on my eyes) Darkness on my eyes
Kinou kyou mo asu mo mienai(can't see the light) kotae wo sagashite
Boku wa... boku wa... ittai doko he to yukeba ii no?

Sotto sawattara sugu ni (kowareru)
Mujou na yasashisa nado iranai (uso tsuite)
Omoi kokoro no tobidashimeta mama
Iki mo dekizu mo kaki kurushinderu
I just boku wa ima morosa ni hitaru yo

Zaiyaku no Egoism de

Takaku habamu tori no tori de Seek in (the) dark (can't see the light)Here is no light
Hitomi tojite hohoenderu (darkness on my eyes)Darkness on my eyes
Ore magatta kanjou boku wo (can't see the light)jyamashite irunda
Boku wa... boku wa... kotae mienai (darkness on my eyes)zetsubou no naka

[RAP]

Deguchi no nai kunou kakae
Kawaita sekai tatazunderu

Kokoro fukaku kareta kanjou Seek in (the) dark (can't see the light)here is no light
Yume no hazama samayoi tsudzuke (darkness on my eyes)Darkness on my eyes
Kinou kyou mo asu mo mienai(can't see the light) kotae wo sagashite
Boku wa... boku wa... ittai doko he to yukeba ii no?

Seek in (the) dark (can't see the light)Here is no light
Seek in (the) dark Feel a darkness eyes

Feel the darkness eyes

Translation

I'm just in an ocean of deep blue loneliness
I don't know how?I can't move forward and come to a halt
Fragments of lies fall away
I crush them, the blood trickles down
Dark in my mind...I hide in weakness

*There's no way out. I bear this anguish
This parched world is at a stand still

**I seek in the dark the withered emotions deep in my heart(here is no light)
I keep wandering in a valley dreams(darkness on my eyes)
I can't see yesterday...today...not even tomorrow...searching for the answer
Where...where in the world should i go?

If I touch it gently it will break immediately
I don't need things like this fleeting kindness(lie to me)
The door to my heavy heart is still closed
I can't breathe...struggling in agony
I just...I now give my self up to this weakness
Win the sin egoism

I seek in the dark a fortree, completely shrouded in shadows(here is no light)
I close my eyes and smile(darkness on my eyes)
These feelings that have bent to and fro are hindering me
I...I...I can't see the answer. Amidst this despair

Raindrops falling from the heaven
I couldn't remember
They take they take away my misery
It's raining on my heart
my fool broken heart
Baby please, don’t go
No light, No sound

* repeat

** repeat

Seek in (the) dark here is no light(can't see the light)
Seek in (the) dark feel a darkness eyes(darkness on my eyes)

Feel the darkness eyes

Back to School~

Yesterday, my roommate and me went to chill out at Stadium Penampang, where Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Agama Tun Datu Mustapha held their sport day. Actually we intentionally want to go to the sport day. The school is where my roommate had her practical before. We basically just barged in the event uninvited. But it was such a fun. We don’t know where it is so we just asked around and at last arrived at the designate place. The weirdest part is we came and went back using different route. On the way back, we have just realize that the route seems familiar (after just ‘hentam’ the way).

Her students were so cute, so small. Everywhere I heard them calling her “teacher, teacher”. Maybe she’s a favourite teacher afterall.